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adminKeymaster29/12/2019 at 1:18 amPost count: 9
What are some specific challenges you have had this year (and maybe other years before that)? We are including a video and exercise about ‘Time’ for you – what else would you like more information about, or help with?maurterParticipant30/12/2019 at 6:09 amPost count: 5
Specific challenges I have faced are honouring myself, trusting myself stepping out of old patterns and paradigms. Creating real relationships with people in my life. I have struggled having close relationships in my life and particularly with my origin of birth family. I’m ready to step into creating this with the people I’m meant to be aligned with!Rhonda RansfordParticipant30/12/2019 at 6:14 amPost count: 4
“What are some specific challenges you have had this year (and maybe other years before that)? We are including a video and exercise about ‘Time’ for you – what else would you like more information about, or help with?”
For me, it’s trying to be focussed in a new area and direction of the work I would like to do. Part of my ‘excuse’ in the past is that it is just sooo nice not to have every minute of my time mapped out for me by people and situations on the outside. And to just be able to give myself gracious space without demands from others.
The last few years, as well, I have been going through, what I consider, a massive transitional period of my whole life: paradigms, belief systems, etc. and I have needed ‘gracious space’ to give myself to allow healing etc to occur.clements91Participant30/12/2019 at 10:02 amPost count: 1
I’d love some help on the topic of guilt, shame and Anger and using those emotions as tools to receive a msg let go of and find some direction moving forward. I’ve found myself blaming my parents and my past for alot of the struggles in my life and becoming really comfortable talking about how I’m so hard done by and how life has been so hard for me. I love stories of my past and I become very susceptible to wearing them as badge and an identity. I’m so keen to jump on a this week and listen and learn from others experience and jump into the new decade with some clear direction.
Much loveJohParticipant30/12/2019 at 10:14 amPost count: 3
Feeling unsupported, not completing all that I wanted to. Lack of resources. Whilst I have improved self care, there is still a way to go. I want help with clarity and working out what the best way for me will be going forward, as I hope to hand over projects. I would like to be less scattered and more grounded in 2020.MurrayKParticipant30/12/2019 at 10:20 amPost count: 1
My biggest challenge this year and for quite a while has been finding balance. Family, work, money, exercise, health, and time for myself have all been out of whack. I’m keen to be more structured and intentional and less reactive to external pressures in 2020GraceParticipant30/12/2019 at 11:21 amPost count: 1
I think one of my biggest challenges in the last year has been around feeling worthwhile— letting go of guilt? (have been a life long people-pleaser) and figuring out a sense of purpose in my life outside of doing things that make me miserable on the off chance it might slightly improve someone else’s day. Feeling ok about not doing that even would be a great start!
Figuring out a sense even of what I want & what I need in any given moment; I’m so habitualised to putting myself last I don’t even know how to recognize what my body is asking for most of the time.
Coupled with a general sense of existential doom, that there is no way out, no way of things being actually objectively good – life is pain & struggle & if you look deep enough everyone is carrying wounds.
Ongoing struggle/ theme throughout my life has been that I’ve been gifted so much talent, intelligence, “so much potential” and I’m wasting that somehow.
I have so much anxiety about how to ‘live up to my potential’ & use my skills, talent, time etc in positive ways, without feeling totally burned out in the process.
Like, what am I actually meant to be doing with my life??
I have a bachelor of Science in Molecular biology & genetics, a masters degree in Early Childhood Education, 6 years of teaching experience and a very strong sense of imposter syndrome. Everything feels like my fault when it goes wrong & if it goes ‘right’, that’s thanks only to others. I turn any piece of feedback, constructive criticisms or outright criticism into little daggers to torture myself with indefinitely, each adding to all the prior crap my brain stores & making it worse, arming my brain with new ammunition to prove i’m a failure.
I went to a retreat & was introduced to a lot of new ideas around embodiment & had some massive perspective shifts while there & during the 12 weeks of mentoring after but I’m still struggling to integrate all that I learned and sort out what resonates, what’s my edges, and what’s straight up not for me & going to retraumatise me if I try to push into it.. even the stuff that made sense at first is confusing me now.
If I can control my thoughts & my focus, why do I consistently end up in the same twisted & self destructive thought patterns?JennyGParticipant30/12/2019 at 1:52 pmPost count: 1
I have spent much of the year feeling unsettled and unsure of what the best direction is for myself and my family. After spending 3 months travelling with my husband and our 4 children last year I feel a bit lost and like “normal” life is so flawed and love the idea of something different. But I’m not sure if I’m feeling like this because I need to change things up and move us all on to a different path or if the problem is actually with my attitude and needing to come to a place of loving and accepting exactly where I am right now. While we were travelling I was able to truly live every day in a place of absolute joy and gratitude and feeling so completely blessed and present and in the moment and have REALLY struggled to feel the same way and be in that same mindset since our return. My oldest son also completed primary school this year and so our family starts on a new chapter in our journey as he starts high school and I have found this really difficult also. I really seem to struggle with the ending of one thing and the beginning of something new. I don’t want to repress anything I’m feeling but find it difficult to know what the balance should be between allowing myself to feel whatever sadness or grief I feel about the ending and not getting stuck in that place. I feel that time is such a precious thing and goes by so fast and don’t want to waste a second and want to make the most of and enjoy it all but think sometimes having that belief running through my mind all the time just puts extra pressure on myself and I become almost paralysed by itadminKeymaster03/01/2020 at 5:34 amPost count: 9
Thank you everyone for your feedback and responses. If you’ve listened to the sessions so far you will know they have informed and helped direct our discussions. We would love to know whether you feel differently about your challenges now, after listening to the sessions?
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